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Brains 🧠
It's all cause of your brains
A hard-dude is hellwired
Brains are a weapon
you keep concealed
Among other types of evil
Sticks to beat folks with
Hard rods full of punishment
Hard fists that's gonna hurt someone
All that rank evil
Kept inside his head
Hard to beleive-it dosnt just explode
Evil through the ranks
Evils in your mind
Evils in your brain
It's a grinder-when you know it
Going to blow your own mind
If you can grow it
Constant stimulations
When it's showing
Sapiosexual-manias
A smart gals hell
Trying to gauge what's going on
In some hard dicks-headspace
Your mind is a mystic-maze
Your a (terrible) wonder of nature
Your full of cultured-nurtures
You've been groomed to be useful
Youve been created as a monster
To be used by other men
Made by nature that way
Used & abused by men
Tied & tried to their systems
Tied up like a fencepost-in hell
Brain powers
staying concealed
Cranium conceals
Cranium creates
Cravings & hungers
Creating crazys
Creating waves
Can end-up giving-up
Creating-tributes
Creating-ripples
Constant-tensions
Constant-frictions
Continuous haywires
Can't be righteous
Can only stay back-from it
Can only self-protect
While you self-promote
Can't control the urges
Calculated & quite acute
To eXamine everything
My brains going haywire
Acute & intense stimulations
Brain functions 🧠
Brain factory's
Brain function
Fearsome f*ckers
For sapiosexuals
Freaky connections
Furtive connectors
For mentalists
Getting off on an angle
Grinding on a corner
The future will be terrible 💀
Right now-its fearsome
Brainwaves of terror
Murder & mayhem
Mysterys of realitys
Terrible weapons
Terrible trials
Terrible history's
Never to be written or recorded
Brain-desires
Brave-desires
Brain-hungers
Baser-designs
Brainiac triggered
Brain-manias
Brain-hungers turned figurative
Brain desires-turned physical 💀
Reaching through time & space
Wanna taste your mind
Wanna take your mind-away
Want to take your mind out
Of its casing
Look inside your head
Look down on your brain 🧠
And find out everything
Time-out in a controlled environment
Nice lab set-up
Where you have to report for duty
Your not able to leave
This has to be done
Gonna take my time
Cause your not leaving
Till I've gotten in close
Time-out for us
Time inside for you
Brain-contact
Anytime soon
Brain contact
And cradle-it
Hold-it
Keep it-for myself
Value your strange-mind
If only we could take the lid off
This personality
Like the lid-off a pie
Get inside your head
See what's inside
Come from the outside & go inside
So devoted-to your mind-life
Strange-personal passions
Strange-personal perspectives
Sapiosexual-curiositys 🧠
Take your head-off & look inside
See what we can find-hidden inside
Brains
Man-brains
Mighty & powerful
All that tasty-wiring
So much tripped-out stuff
Sapiosexuals-bible works
Strange mental workouts
Sexy styles of evil
Stupid styles of shit
Strange twisted wheels
Socially warped mechanics
Strangely cultured magicks
Brains
The ultimate weapon aganist society
Brains
And intentions
Bizzare personality's
Gets me every time
Mediocritys get crushed in your wake
Your most powerful weapon is not what you thought
It's not all between your legs
It's not what you can see
Look higher-up
Inside your dead-mans face
You think you have me all dumb & drooling
You don't see-im seeing inside you
You don't see-the mind-life looking at you
Looking through you like your glass
Hawks eyes on you
Dead or alive
I've grown eyes-in the back of my head
Needed to survive
Being with a constant bastard
Being under these pressures
Because what was all physical
Has just gone all mental
Mentalisms feel more real
Brains
What's inside your head man?!?
Cranium conceals all evils
Wanna open you up more
Get a better look
At unusual brains
Brainpowers
My brains are all-sharp points
Pin pricks in a murder-map
Knife-tips to pathways
Spahjetti-junction
Your just stunning
Stunningly-cruel
Cold & icey
Calculator-of life
Wicked & crude
Cruel & crass
Heavy hard & dumb
Bad-brains
Brains of a super-calculated bastard
Bastards cultured out of social evils
Because what was all physical is going all mental
You demand all that physical control
You just expect it-as a given
Mentalisms feel more real
Your minds eye
Your masters eye
Master of all dooms
& keeper of all deaths
Your evil eye-your giant evil eye
Looking out-as the joker
Looking out-as the taker
Looking out as the eater
Feels way more real-than your body
Than the physical
Your such a heavyweight
But it still doesn't register
It still didn't fit
It still won't go-click
It's got empty parts-that just don't fit
The physical is not really attainible
Your cold hard f*cks in hell
Your damaged wiring dosnt do connections
Like I do
I'd rather eXamine you
Take your mind-apart
Physical has just gone mental
Brains
Can't I just eat right through-you
Old hunters style
Not need to talk then-i can just feel you
Parts of you-going inside me
Sustained by your essence
The physical is not really attainible
It's not really sustainable
It's all just lying-miracles
It's all just jerk-off fantasys
Your the bestv liar-ive ever seen
Your the best liar-ive ever dreamed
Your the best living monster-ive ever known
Twisting vortex-for my dreams
No it's all in my thoughts
Brains behind the powers
Brains
Brainwaves
Brain-links
Brianiac
Brain stimulations
Bias & desires
Insinuations & imaginations
That binds
That blinds
Brain changed-by keeping strange company
Brain tracks-shifting over really quick
Brain hooked-on a drip drip-effect
It's all in my mind
So I've always been told
The ultimate excuse
For unseen evils
Shit sidelines in society
Places you can't find-inside your mind
Vacant spaces-where reality gets denied
Brains-thats the true binder
Brains that's the true blinder
Brains-like a castle full of rooms
A sapiosexuals-nightmare
Fast jerk-off fodder
A guttersnipes-marketplace
The power of bizzare
Your body is a major distractor
Like a pre-routed destination
Hard to not go-there
Just so you can get some adorations
Just do you can steal-some reservations
Too fricking-obvious
Deliberate distractions
That's your way of life
But it isn't the one
I'm missing out the prize
Attention whore-grade A
It's not between your legs
That's all just so cold-its just so pointless
It's all just so older
It's just deadend control
It's don't mean shit to you
What do you care anywayz
Life is your roulette wheel
It's inside your terrible-head
Never gets old-cause it's always reinvented
Death walks-it has legs
Cause then I'm still outside of yah
I can't stand to be outside
It was some shit male invention
Of your major organ
Major superpower
Brains
Braniac-is you
Brains-full of evils
Brains-full of pathways
Evil destinations
Rhoutes-inside of your head
Wired-up to your heart
Dinosaur generations
Where do we start?!?
Let's eat what's in yah
Let's eat what you are 🧠
Let's get inside your head
Looking good on yah
Look better in my hands
Your amazing brain
Gonna havta rearrange yah
And I know your so perfect
Shame to spoil yah
Cause your the perfect monster
But I gotta get closer
I gotta find a way to open you up-more
Let's take a look inside your headspace
Your born such a head-case
I'm making a meal out of it
I'm a big deal out of it
Everything about you-its exciting
Be better inside of me
Super brain from hell
Let me be inside-where I belong
Super brainiac
And everyone else
Can't see
Take it for granted
How you f*ck with their heads
And they don't even see it
Or just don't care
Too conditioned
Too overwhelmed by your power
But I do-stab at guesses
Guess I'm making enemy's here?!?
Don't even care
Cause your body's so obvious
Evil genius ignites the world
All because of what you can't see
Your beautiful fu*king face
But it's inside your head
What really matters
Brains
Beautiful bastard
The perfect monster
Best brains-ever
The best is yet to come
The best is yet to come-over
The best yet will be inside me
When I get to eat what you are
Can't try anymore
To make sense of anything
Everything is so messed-up
I'll just examine you
Trophy hunters hunger
You ignite the hungers
Mentalisms
Mesmorising people
Mind trickerys
You invite the hungers
Or so it looks like
Giant attention-whore
Emptying out everything
You want people demonics
You want their desires
Freaking all on you?!?
Attention-whore-grade A
You suck it-all up
Let me see your mind
Let me see your brains
Let me see inside of you
Open up-your head to me
Open-up your mind to me
Let me see inside you you
Where its-all at baby
Brain-stem
Beautiful-stem
Your made in 2 halves
Knew you were split that way
Duplicitous in every way
I'll kiss your beautiful-brains
Source of all power
Give yourself over to me
Let me touch your head
Let me touch your mind
Let me do a brain scan
Scan for adnormalitys
Genetical anomolys
Know your a freaking freak
Fricking freakball
I can feel it-man
Let me touch your beautiful brains
Let me taste-yah
Ultimate source of power
I wanna taste it
A beautiful-climax
Because you will be no more
But in my memorys
You'll live forever more
You flood my soul
With your dynamics
Dead or alive
I love your mind so much
I don't forget yah
You've gotten engraved-on me
Looked for the reason for years
But I've never found conclusive proofs
Bits of this & that
Crossing-over theorys
Disfunctional genius
Crazy morbid f*ck head
Let me see your brains
I wanna hold your mind
Touch you for real
Glorious brain power
Cradle it in my hands
I wanna handle it
I wanna hold-it
I wanna hold you in my hands
The strangest mind
Of morbid fiXations
I wanna see yah
Let me touch yah
I'll lock you up in a lab
Be real cold
With a white lab coat on
Let's see what's inside yah
Source of the genius-dislocated
Sapiosexual mania
Let me taste your head
Let me eat your brains
Just a little taste
Just to get a feel for it all
Trophy hunters lust
Trophy hunters rush
Oh god
I wanna consume you
Source of your power
The genuis-insane
Insane-morbid convict
Convict of crazy
Ignited fire inside my soul
Intensive
Investigative
Irrational
Wanna see inside your head
Don't try to block-me
Cause I'm the only one who sees-yah
I can see inside-yah
Your terrible trophy of morbid evil
Your terrible brains
Your terrible terrorist mind
Your brain so fu*king strange
Your mind so weird
Your brain
So warped & distorted
So dark & contorted
Brains
You made me want your body
Just to distract me
Just to distort my reality
It's in your face the real f*cker
The real headf*ck is inside your face
It's inside your head
And I know it........

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Live with the fears
Goes right through you
Fear-factors
Shit life-factors
Born into fears
Noone was helping
Live with the fears
Just eating through you
Mind body & spirit
Like a viper-thats come to life in me
Eating you alive
Horror fantasys
Horrible hell reels
Horror realitys
Imagine things going wrong
From out of nowhere
Mundane realitys
Basic animal fears
Fears like a wriggling snake
All over the body
Wriggling & writhing out of control
Manage to struggle through
Survive again
Survive-it all 💀
But still fear again
The snake rises back-up
Raising havoc's again
Go through it all again
Fighting-down rising fears
Live outside of society
No real-securitys
Improvised-living
Inner-chaos-unwanted
Outer chaos-restrictive
Holding onto-edge of circle
No golden spoon
Worst kind of starts
Will to survive-ingrained
Born-unknown
Born-by accident
Born-disputed
Holding onto-edge of circle
From the cradle
Going to the grave
Grave-disturbance
Grave-situation
Fear fuels from uncertaintys
No real-securitys
Years-of living roughly
Self-made circles
Different-circuits
On the edges
Fear-factors
Holding-on
Holding-out
Holding-on
Holding-out
As the years slip-away uncounted
Trying so hard to focus-you can't remember
Tough days-spiraling away
Toughing it-out
Stripped-away
Pushing back
Pushing to get back-up
Fear being stripped to the bone
Everyday life-going to shit
Fear knows your face
Face some shit & win
Face some shit & lose
Fear of life
Future phobias-breeding
Circuit folds-attempts flops
Things you figured-would work
Just go flipping & flopping
Simple goals-go to shit
Goals-you figured a done deal
Go slipping-away
Stupid ass-shit
What the hell?!?
Plans you reasoned out-shit you tried
Goes all wrong
Feel-all wronged
Future fears alive in your mind
Figuring God's gone on holiday
Fear is watching
Any excuse to go jump in
Fear jumps in
When logic crumbles
Senses your not sure
Trys to jump into your heart
Trys to take-a hold
Trying to live off your heart
Trying to live off-your born fears
Future-freaking
Demon's in disquise
Fear factors
Brain shrinking
Breeding on fears
Feeding off fears
Feeding off your beating-heart
Fear-factors
Fooling around-to f*ck you up
Future phobias-breeding
Demons-in disquise
Lying-advisers
Liabilitys-lies in your head
Living thoughts-like hook worms
Lying demons-faking life
Wrestling for controls
Eating you alive
Fear jumps right inside you
Eats you from the outside-in
Or from the inside-out
Worm inside your brain
Ways around-your insides
Whenever-you make plans
Insideous-enemy
Silent eater
Silently eating away
Silently eating away your heart
Fear-factors
Heart-eater
Lives off-your fears
Blows-them up
From small-to massive
Negative-potential
Amplified-from thoughts
Imagination-bares wicked fruits
Negative-suggestions
Start-to repeat
StaRt-to shape hell
Silent death sentence
Seriously stripping you down
Factors from-fears
Pulls your psychologys-all about
Wrecks your sense of self
For no reason
Feeling worse than before
Paralysed to take-action
Fears-alive
Brainworm-eats into your control
Realtime-driven apart inside
Security's always been too laX
Edge of society's circle
Fear of your born life
Couldn't get born right
Wrecks-on your confidence
Template-bad from the start
Just getting it together
Factors from-fear
Sudden influence
Sudden attacks on stabilitys
Unwanted intruder
Unwanted friend
Unwelcome influence
Unreason as an aspect
Unwanted focus
Wrapped around my body
White light streaming in
Want it-to get off me
Leave me alone
Can live without fear
Got enough to deal
Got enough shit already
Roadblocks a-plenty
Freaky-ass shit
Future horror focus
Freaked out by fears
Future focus-folding
Fear is controlling
Fill your naked heart-with fear
Strangles-out your life
Taking you-off focus
Heart full of fears
Just as your trying
Can't concentrate
Rational goes to ruin
Reasoning affected
Rights afflicted
Rationale removed
Reasons going nuerotical
Irrational-makes it worse
Fear is worse than reality
Everything needs careful handling
Life easily brakes
Control easily-slips
Concentration easily-blips
It's already shit!! 🤍
Don't need another overload
Disturbing
Distracting
Distorting
Daymares
Daytime fears
Phobias
Future worsens
Imagination-working overtime
Times running out
Sands of time-running low
Feeling-lows
Running on fears
Life is secure
But ruined by the mind
Slow horror reel
Runs in your head
Nightmares in the daytime
Actually seem real
Worse than the night
Night fears-arent real
Just fear of shadows
Gone by the dawn
Just shadow fears
Blown-up by the dark
Mundane reality
Going-off tracks
Horrible fears-seeming so real
Have chances
Have choices
But fear kills it off
Trying to work out-whats realistic
What's even real?!?
Force-fed fears
Fears strangles out your life
Freaking out big
Anxietys & phobias
Crippling
Before you've even started
Telling you lies
Telling you the worst
Imaginations co-creating
Create your own reality-as you go along
Circle of all-living fears
Cycle of death & decay
Circus of deadly life
Hard to draw the line
When it keeps on melting-away
Too close-to be comfortable
Too close to the line
Too close from the start
Too close to the powers
Of life & death
Born into povertys
Brain stays alert
Born into fear
Circuits of hell
Making efforts-to escape
But it comes back around again
Gets too close
Security blanket-not there
Rise above-again
Then fall below-again
Saved-by faith
Then strangled-by all fears
Time has to freeze
Time has to stop
Time has to still
To stop all the pain
Irrational-crazys
Gets back in-again
Fear of-origins
Origins-of fear
Blinded by fear life
Future-phobias
Every hour eaten away
Worms in the mind-life
Worms in your future vision
Worms in your beating heart
Fear ingrained
Fears from the start
Fear of the future
Future phobias
Fear gets lodged inside your heart
Fear killing off the living heart 🤍
Imagine the worse
Life going-off course
Loss of known focus
Future going off-track
Not stopping the fears
Not keeping control
Not knowing what's real
Timeline-starting to melt
And what's just binding-fears
Snowball effect
Small problems-magnify
Horror brain-activates
Feeds off known-fears
Feeds of-all living fears
Focus gone freaky 💀
Brain pains
Not being a friend
Brain has too many bends
Brain isn't making sense
Real-realitys bending
Going off tracks......

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Rainy day in summer
No plans been made
No summer-outings
No plans been made-that matter
No life plans-to complicate
No outings-to interrupt
Nothing-that matters
Nothing to interrupt
Nothing to challenge
Pick up posties parcel
Damp from the rain
Postie dressed in bright orange
Pouring-outside
Beautiful sheets of rain
Deluge of water
Drowning in natures designs
Powers of the rain
Beautiful
Awesome
Crystal-clear
Cool & clear
Cool & crystal
Drenching everything
Drowning out-depressions
True-pour down
Empty out the skys
Clearing-cleaning
Just a slow Friday-struggle
Doing nothing
Going nowhere
Kitchen-bedroom
Bedroom-kitchen
Prayers on the porch
Plodding-along
Persistant-but slow
Doing house
Doing slow but strong
Stable but dumb
Just trying to stay alive
Don't know why I try?!?
Poor have to fight-to carry on
Not the privileged life
That's for sure
Holding on to the edges
Of the life wheel
Gods halter-holding
So go on & rain along
You can't rain on my parade
Cause I'm not going anywhere
Love the rain
Slapping & dripping
Cooling on the porch
Traditional interlude
Some country's
Rainy-summer
Expected with humour
Tricky weather-gods
Traditional attitudes
Trying changes
Starts to rain-whenever
Raingod dosnt care
Covets your picnic
Days out-getting drenched
Everything will change
A d then change-back again
Get caught-out
Weather gods play
You don't get-control
Gods of tricky-playing with the diles
Gods stole the sun again
Moon ate the sun
Rain stole on the heat
Waters caught the beat
Cars sluicing by-on slippery roads
Calming for the poorer-souls
Cooling-for the older flats
Cool airs-coming through windows
Good for the humours
Calms down the manias
Cosey-inside
Contained-feeling
Covered-by the rains
Calming-surround
Can feel like autumn-in July
Pretend autumn days
We can try-July in the rain
Outside of the window
Looming sky is white
Cool puddles of water on the porch
Paving slabs all gone darker
Huge chunky pasta
Trying to cook on the hob
Cold white sky-through the wooden shutters
It's an autmn day
Cool & calm
Cool in july
Seagulls whirring
Sky goes whites & grays
Summers heat-hammer
Summers-hot hells
Repealed-again
Take your time again
Time out-from fearful again
Fear the summer sun
Povertys envelop the soul
In summer sun
Heat bakes the soul
Difficult aspects
Spiritual struggles
Fear of death
Getting heated-up
Rainy day in summer
Death is repealed
Air is cooled
Soul is calmed
Soul is balmed
Private & protected
Time-out
Private-time
Doing things-slow & steady
Just seems right
Don't need to rush
Feel-safe
For a while
Pressures of summer
All magnified-by the heat
All magnified-by the daily fears
Struggle to survive
Struggle with fear
Struggle against life
All living fears
Summer-amplifies everything

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Always had the world kept behind me
Always kept backstage
Not in-the outside world
No regular life-in society
Staying in the background
Digital world-like a sheild
Media access-like a sheild
Radio signals-like a sheild
Entertaining-strangers
Others lives coming in
Penetrating personal space
Drip-drip influences
Pervasive in the background
Power in the digital-world
Helping with the void
Can't stand the silence
Cannot heal the wounds
Can help me see the world
Can't heal the hell's
Can hear the hell's of others
Injustice-in the frames
Pain behind-the names
Serious & sober
Voices of survivors
American-justice
Demands blood
Demands time
Cracks in trust
Broken lives
Full of cracks
Hidden dramas
Secrets behind the scenes
Behind the scenes
Life of broken dreams
Someone trusted-stole something
Life has been changed
Never be the same
Can't stand the silence
Silent vaccum
Humming strains
Rather hear their pain
Reaching for the seams
Watching on-their world
Understand-matters
Powers of law-in action
Wonders of modernism
World of strange
Behind-my world
See the strange world
Great & vast
American societys
Just from magick-buttons
World comes alive & sometimes live
From a safe-distance
Societys-mediums
Strange world-outside
Societys-so sour & strange
Can't stand the silence
Rather hear the weird
Rather see the world
Rather know the words
Justice & injustice
World's in action
Even though I don't step outside
Modern society crumbles away
Generations getting lost
Bonds braking down
Circles becoming empty
Now your family has gone digital
Now your world is from strangers
Metal towers in the sky
Unknown-life
Live like a ghost
Love for society-full of scars
Life-with the guts ripped out
Life without a silver spoon
Life without cutlery-sometimes
Things don't look the same
From the outside
Objective will stay
And feared & hated
Never should have been
Wasn't born to copy
Things look different-from the outside
God made me that way
Peeps are ignorant
Born with everything
Assume that everyone's the same
If everythings-robbed
Then how could it be?!?
We are-what weve gotten
Some of us-have gotten nothing
Nothing but burdens
Other people's sad-ass shit
Roadblocks from hell
Can't be giving out-what you haven't got
Can't believe in-what you know is not
Can't be a fibber-when the coin has dropped
If keepers are liars
Life down the pan
Won't understand till your older
Then it's too late
Damage has been done
Life has gone down
Evil-bastard
Sick master-plan
Using the dependents
Locked-inside plots
Not born with a golden key
No mother-love
No milk & honey
Just heartless-gray grim
Got me keys unto hell
Got me a mind-strong as steel
Got me a life-stuck on a bad wheel
A life I don't want
Didn't want life of crime
Didn't want life of grime
Endless pain
Negative cycles
Injustice through the veins
From the gutters
All the way up the pyramid
Life of lying hates
Made by others
Blood is an enemy
Pyramid of lies
Blood is an ugly pyramid
Lies from the base
And all the way-up
Built from the start
Heart for god
Ain't seen as love
Just seen as sin
But the divine is true
Society of greed is cruel
Burden of knowledge
Keeps me up at night
Topics most strange
Can't stand the silence
Too many memories
Can't stop my mind-reel
So I've filled it in
Can't stop my mind-life
So I've helped-it along
Can't stop the pain-wheel
So I study for justice
Mundane life interrupted
To watch like a hawk
Can't stand the silence
Filled up with true-crime
Lawmen-come on in
Lawwomen-come on in
Show us the world
American justice
Ways of crime
Life of sin
Love of law
Show us how it works
How they pay the penalty's
Filled up the silence
Take away-the strain
With other choices
Now I get to choose
Filled with other voices
Guys who I wanted
Guys I would choose
Guys who can teach
Guys who can reach out
Lawfull & law
Society's protectors
What I never had
Cultish-controls
Cruel-relations
Selfish-sentence
Keep us-blind to the world
Not allowed-to see it
Controlled-medias
Chosen-by others
Controlled-access
Controlled society
Restricted everything
Controlled reality
Sparse access
Limited understanding
Modernist choices
Choices remade
Strange digital life
Digital realitys
World outside of me
Keeping an eye-open
Keeping an open-eye
From a distance
Still able to see
What is shown
The whole world is watching
Watching on America
Watching-other world's
Had it all planned
Till the digital-got killed
Black box-of life
This living lie
Illusion of reality
Images-brought on from the world
Just went & died
Digital world death
Digital box-dead
Can't stand the silence
Got better things to think about!! 🍅
Dark-tales from the gutter
Knowledge-that kills
Life-without choice
Limited-chances
Invisible to society
Invalid-in reality
Invested-from the outside
Born into life of silence
Born into a life made empty
Born into an empty vaccum
Can't stand the silence
Life made empty
Stripped away-by theives
Living-liars
Murder at the diner-table
Should know better
Children-cant tell
That trust is all wasted
Children are sweet
Till life's taken hold
Then they turn bitter
When they know better
Days lived alone
Can't stand the silence
Need a barrier-function
Not an actual person
Getting in the way
Too much to do
Slow drag through chores
Slow drag through life
Slow grind-with stranger mind
Can't stand the silence
But don't need-nobody
Happy with technology's
Keep yourself-entertained
While you work-background noise
Brain-needs sound
Brain-hates the silence
Brain-modulates off the babble
Babbling brook-in the background
Better off-with distant friends
Background-society
Can still get stuff-done
Inbetween-lives
Substitute friends list
Of famous faces
Come grace our space
Come fill the space
Fathers who talk
Grandfather's who teach
Comfort you at night
With you waking in the morning
Narrating the strange & sworded
Familiarise yourself with personality's
Comforting voice
Somebody out there
Who can grace the day
Somebody who spills the beans
Somebody who knows the secrets & the grit
Story's most shocking💀
Tales of cold-hard murder
Tales from the lying heart ❤️
Takes of grim & gruel
Man's inhumanitys
No no-end
Tales of envy greed & murder
Like a grace
The ghoul wants to know all
Sucking up the grims-like a sponge
Better off-with borrowing
Than sitting in-empty
Know it's not mine
Know it's all borrowed
Digital-highways
I've got plenty-eays to go
Drive around the world's of men
With the touch of a button
Super spy society
Big screen in every home
Can't stand the silence
Dont need no-body
Don't want somebody
There body-their mind
Getting in-my way
Need to do-chores
Gonna take all day
Self-care & stuff
Sometimes day-sometimes night
Stuff taking-hours
Story's-while I work
Can't stomach-empty silence
Brain won't work-in silence
Just shuts itself-down
Radio in the background
Outside of societys
Live in a house-full of strangers
Back home-house full of strangers
On holidays-house full of strangers
Breakfast in hotels-living around strangers
Bits of babble & noise
Bits of strangers-brake the void
Bits of conversation-brake the void
See snapshots-of society
Sitting-on the porch
See the world-move around fast
As the regulars-move around
Those-born to belong
Take-their place
Know where-they were born
Know for sure-where their going
Solid-plans in life
Options-with certaintys
Not left unsure & insecure
To the outsider-envy their security's
Envy the mediocritys
Theyll-never know society hell's
Ambient-realitys
Not-outcasts to society's
Always had the world-outside me
Just about-in reach
Not physical
Just audio-visual
Extracts of reality
Filtering in
Flooding in
Feigured-in
To daytime's
Nightimes
Can't live-in silence
Or brain just switches-off
Can't sit in silence
Terrible strain
Emptyness-equals awful
Illusions-of modernitys
Illusions-from technology's
Enough to-get by with
World-still outside
Other worlds-seem so alive
Just press-a button
And it all comes to life ❤️
Don't even need a life
To watch-anything you want
Don't have to give-anything but your time
Just haggle-the remote control
Expose yourself-to society
Just juggle-the remote
Who needs silence?!?
A whole room-as a vacuum
Chose-your influence
Chose-your society
Chose-your learning style
Great eagle eye
Great eye in the sky
Electronic-technologys
Beam down-into your life
Watch-a world full of world's
Watch-a way full of ways
Watch-others far away
Like their-inside your room
Great big-towers
Eyes in the sky
Got-onside your bedroom
World is your oyster
World has the rye like god
Eye in the sky
Hawks eye-of broadcasts
Electric-eye
Watching like a hawk
Seen from the skys
Through-digital connecters
Life kept behind life
Watching-while I live & die
Listening-while I do my chores
Keeping house
While-the radio hums-just behind me
No hands for mobile tv-while I'm at the hob
Waiting for my next time out
Greedy ghoul of my soul
Waiting for my murder-story tv
Classical pianist-while I'm at the sink
The world-is outside coming on in
The world-is behind me
While I'm outsude-dealing with the grim
Murder TV in the daytime
Final-24 at breakfast
Screaming operah in the nightime
Loud music from the tv
Everything is crazy
Till my world turned silent
Till my works turned silent
Now my words are in a vacuum
Silence like a heavy muffle
Wake up to silence
Something is wrong 💀
Wake up inside silence
Horrible compression
Horrible horrid-emotyness
Vacuum-of empty air
No airwaves-just a giant black hole
Black hole of space
No social link-nothing to behold
No lifeline-of outside world
Can't bear my thoughts properly
Goldfish bowel-reality
Sitting in a vacuum
My brain doesn't like it
Digital technolgys-just gone cold
Digital lifeline-just snapped off
Digital lifetime-just died
Dead black box-with no light
Dead black box-has finished it's life
TV has no signal
Tv just goes blankety-blank
Dead bedroom life
Norhings-holding in the background
Mental modulations-start to go wrong
The silence-feels so empty
Silence-feels like death
Even though-im still alive
Sit there in silence
Soon to go to sleep
Brain modulations going-off
Sit there in silence-id rather just die
Bedroom companion-has put out the lights
Can't stand the silence
Digital-nightmare
As the technology's fail
Small black box-just died
No real reason
No more magick
No more technology's
Black box-just died
No more-connectors
Digital life-just gone died💀
Empty occasions
Room plunged into horrible silence
Classical-operah in the evening
Now gone into nothingness
Nothing but empty silence
Time is a blank-slate
Unmodulated-brain
Feels all the pain
Nothing to seperate
Nothing to distance
Nothing to compete with concentrations

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Steal back the day
Gonna be trying
Been starting off wrong
Been starting off down
Been starting off feeling down
Down & out feeling
Even inside a house
Down & out feeling
Even inside-all the time
Down & out feeling
In your own flat
Falling away-from life
Turning into society's ghost
Treading over lines-everywhere
Can feel it underneath me
That I'm transgressing
Down & out feeling
Down-trodden
Callous comments
Adverse conditioning
Trapped-inside
Static stale & flat
Life & death struggles
Poverty like a rope around your neck
Ball & chains of past enemy's
Liquid lies-leaking on through
Words in your mind
burning into your brain
Words like acid-eating away
Corrosive & hurtful to the heart
Can't go back & say hell-no
Society of damned-liars⚰️
Should've known better
Should've been on my side
Walked away before I was even born
Turned your back
But still propogating shit
But kids are trusting
Couldn't see it
Mind full of pain-bringers
Pain-binders
Pain-binders
Mind full of keys
Been stored-all your life
Words of lies & hate
Where's the love?!!
That sure ain't there
Still leaking through
Drip by drip-every day
Negative messages
Lieing-sons of bitches
Dont go caring-what your saying
Don't pay attention-your asleep at the wheel💀
You don't care what your doing
Or who you do stuff-to
You think reality isn't real
Woozy old tape reel
Still having an effect
Past interference
Dire circumstance
Fading-out feeling
Souls feeling-thinned
Souls like-sheets of paper
Not really here properly
Body is here for sure
For sure-mind is elsewhere
Body is here-for sure
Pains in my bones-tell me that
But spirit-is moving around
Drifting-off elsewhere
Can't get it-right
Can't feel anything-but shit
Can't even up the score
Inadequate-to the core
Secretly angry at God
Gotta be a suspect
On a long list
Hate it to be that
Faith is a tester
Society is a bastard from birth
God is a bastard
Does he even care?!?
He made us just to suffer
He made us to just die
Can't it be anything else
Wanna be a beleiver
But his heart is like ice sometimes
If he isn't elsewhere
Nature is a cruel-fight
And life is so cold
Born into shit
Born outside of justice
Life is just an empty desert
Beauty to behold
Bringer of sure-death
Only the adapted-can survive
Only the mean-can thrive
Hardcore sun
Hunting you down
No longer-bathing
Now its-baking
No longer just warming
Now it's heating you-up
Gonna cook you-till you've had enough💀
Hopeless-god
Empty-eyes
Faithless hell
Feel the downturn
Down-trodden life
Miracle of birth
Not a beleiver
Wouldn't chose to be here
Your 1st breath
Born into slumlands
It's already a lie
Gods love is a prison
Born into faith-life
But soon-you will die
Hot & empty
Dead & dusty
Can't eat sand
Can't eat burning grains of glass
Faith-falling through your hands
Stretching out for miles
It's a thankless task
Empty & hot
Land full of bones
Dry-lands
Gonna boil-up your blood
Morbid-sun
Live till you die
Suck out your life
Hold onto-faith
Or fall outta life
Hold onto-faith
Or fall-out of favour
Add more bones to the empty desert
Gods favour is a blindness
Gods eye is fire
Gods eye is blind
Burning winds
And fatalist fires
And faithless life
Born without justice
Bones from the start
Cross of bones-faith from the start
Hold onto-the cross
To stay upright
Hold into-the cross
Or start-leaning-off
Start-falling
Skull-cross
Holds you in-tight
Vultures-know your weakened
Gonna wear a crown
Marked from the start
Life is just a desert
Empty & hot
Animals are hungry
There is no remorse
When the sun is angry & dry
The makers didn't care
Taken to the wrong house
Born amongst strangers
Justice like a bloody-snare
The keepers took their share
Steal back the day
That should have been mine
Keep trying to fix-up
But always out of time
Faith is a challenge
When in a slum house
Left in the cold
Minus the mod-cons
God screams-like eagles
It's hard-to be heard
Can't think straight
Can't feel anything but shit
Can't help-but take the bait
Paying for societal equations
That I never made
Made for a world
Never created
Society of hate
Right to the core
Have to hate at God
Cause he's a suspect
Core of injustice
Couldn't he change it?!?
Can't feel anything but shit
It's an uphill climb already
Day only just kicking-in
Gonna claw through the day
Gonna knaw through the day
Gonna know all my best efforts
Will end up-in vain
God has controls
It sucks anywayz 💀
Can't even up the score
Fight the feelings
Change social equity's
Take back control
Steal back the day
Night is too far away-yet
Human vultures-be crowding my mind
Human vultures-be mean & unkind
Human vultures-be watching for my death💀
Evil eyes-praying for my breaths
Feed off you
Live off your fall
Pray for your demise
Hypocrites
Stake-holders
Wait till you crawl
Drop down-dead
Or fight for your future
Split in half-life ain't sure
Wars of self-splitting apart inside
Emotional tangles-eating up insides
Indecisive
Not incisive
Invisible
Indecesive
Not inside-life
Not lucid
Clarity's are crippled
Main-brain
Gone offline
Main-brain
Gone-outside
Head is all cloudy
Not lucid-not remembering
Brain is soft-like marshmallows
Brain is clouded
Crystal ball-too cloudy
Brain-life
Off-course
Computer-modulation
Brain-life
Not working
Life of-its own
Will is all-divided
Will is-collapsing
Will-power is wilting
Steal back the day
Crystal ball-full of mist
Steal back the day
Can feel myself-folding
Can feel myself-falling
Faith is a challenge
God is a secret-suspect
When the future is loaded
Loaded-up full of fears
Shit that could go wrong
Psychosocial shit pit
Steal back the day
Could take it back
If I could find-it
Inside of-myself
Will to-work it
Decisively mine
If I could just take it-back
Will is all-divided
Brain is all clouded
Heart is all-broken
Compounded-emotions
Powers of-notions
Wrong life
Wrong turn
Wrong ties
Depressions
Deprivations
Destinations
Faith is a challenge
In a slum-house
Take back the day
Steal back your own life
The night is too far away
Where god has forgotten?!?
Human vultures-be counting on me dying
Been waiting-a long time now
Still been too stubborn
Still been-hoping on change
Still been coping
Cause that's all you get
It's a long time-coming around
Life is like a burden
Carrying old shit-surely drags you down💀
To just let go-always have that option
But around the ring we-go
Wanting to be-giving up
Wanting to be giving up already
Wanting to be pushing-back
But dissociations taking-over
Taking over-everything
Trying to steal back the day
Trying to come back-in
Taking on pills
Taking on chances
Where my brainwaves ain't right
Trying to fix-a lifetime of fights
Trying to fix-a bad start from fear
Trying to hold-on
But I'm losing this fight
Trying to hold-on
But I'm slipping-outside
God-told us from the start
Always to fight
But I'm losing the will
To do things-hard
To do things-right
To stay on-upright
I know I'm leaning
Be upright-on this cross
Criss of-skulls
My soul is-breeding
Crawling along
Days been around
The morning already
Times just eating-itself
Times just-killing me off
Times just dragging me down
Life's just dragging-me out
Know all the time
I'm better off-out
Don't know what I'm really doing here?!?
Cross of life-holding me in?!?
Cross of death-pleading for sin?!?
Fading-out
Falling-back
Trying to hold-on
But not sure what I'm aiming for
Watching on-America
Trying to see god's biggest show
Huge planet-that turns
Wheels-that have many cogs
Waters of life-go churn
Watching on America
Strange history's revolving
Triumphs
Disasters
History is watching
Eye of god-in the media
Life-as it unrolls
Gods eyes-watching on America
Watching-like a hawk
Want to be-pushing back
God told us long ago-to rebel
Feel yourself-falling out
Chaos of yesterday
Comes back with a frown

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Summers back
Suckers-summer
Summers-slack
Summer-stirring
Summer heat-blurring
Summer life-blending
Summer brain-slowley melting
Summer brain-sure not helping
Sinister-sun
Kills me inside
Warm sun-burning
Yellow heat-bubble
Suckers-summer
It's a slow-death
Sick-old spirits
Like museum-mummys
Dried out-onfluence
Want to be freed
Sad-old influences
Bad houses-of the past
Soul trappers-of the past
Bad suckers-of the past
Body warmed by the yellow sun
Mummys-of childhood
Land of-the dead
Sunlands-held inside books
Coocoon in warmth
Held by the spirits of death
Spirit-bogeys won't leave me alone
Old dead spirits-wont leave me alone
Try to pull me away
Try to lead you astray
Try to take you away
Try to impose on the circle
Try to trick you outside
Try to tie you with a lie
Try to trick you with lying shit
Try to pull you out the circle
Shitty conjuring tricks
Stupid circle blips
Sick lying shits
Sad sour retards
Sad stuck relations
Don't beleive a word
Go back to
Land of the dead
Dead ghosts-feast
F*ck them all
Send them all back where they came
Sick sour circles
Need sending back to hell
Hell-spirits
Presume-prescence
It's a slow-death
Warm sun bubble
Encase-your flesh
Enclose-your brain
Encase-your brain
Enclose-your flesh
Heatsick
Heatsuck
Sleepy head-sun bath
Strange-slide back
Summers-gonna suck on me
Sun-dragging me back
Sun-leaving me slack
Sun brain-set on slacker
Sun brain-ambient lurker
Wanna slip-away
What's holding me-inside life?!?
Too slack-to fight for life
Too slack-to fight the heat
Too chilled-to function
Too complacent-too care
Brain-tells me lies
Lies-from my own brain
Try to understand society-all my life
Read books till I die
Wanna slip-away
What's holding me back?!?
Heatwaves-melt the manic brain
Sinister-sun
Kills me slowley
Morbid-sun
Kills me-wholey
Brainwaves-set to ambient
Ambient brain-death
Ambient life-death
Ambient-brain death
Ambient slacker-nothing gets done
Ambient brains-a stunner
Ambient brains-not focused
Wrong brain-setting
Wrong-self
Wrong-life
Wrong-lines
Complacent
Complicit
Complacent
Inwardly-vacant
Depressed-in summer
Dragged down-by fear
Fears-eat out your heart 💛
Try to block-it out
But it creeps-back in
Not life-focus
No focused-life
Not fighting-just crawling
Crawling
Clawing
Continue-on
Crippled-by douphts
Through-each day
Feel better-off dead
Feel bad-just to be here
Slacker-bummer
Bummer-slacker
Dropped-out
Dropped-down
From shit society
Downbeat-not a beleiver)
Born-a beleiver
Then they-broke it
Born-a beleiver
Then-they choked it
Dropped-down
Dropped-out
From-society
Still-alive somehow
Sleepy-as they come
Sleepy-yellow pulls me down
Summer depression
Summer-recession
Summer-drags out slow
Summer-drags me back down
Summer-tainted with death
Summer blighted-by decay
Summer-tainted with the dead
Summer spoiled-by deadend spirits
Shit remenants-from the past
Sour shades-still holding on
Sad sentiments-sickened
Sour & spoiled from envys
Sick carcass-of the dead
Dead-end connections
Just wanting attentions
Friends of my enemys
Just f*ck off & die
Don't know you-anymore
You never cared-anyway
Now my heart-is one big desert 💛
Anarchist-tendencys
Leave me-alone
Sad-sick magicks
You used-up yourself
Now you've-nothing else left
Try to use others-trying to get inside
F*ck off-out the circle
Sick-sour-magicks
You've used-up yourself
Sour-bitter-sweet
Dead-inside
Numb-all over
Torpour-of soul
Morbid-soul
Getting-strange sickness
Morbid-soul
Morbid-ghoul soul
Sick-of life itself
Spirit-sick
Sick of-sick society
Society-of sickness
You are-not blessed
When-your spirit sick
You are just-sour
When life-just revolves
Not a sound
Not a sight
Not a life-anyone would want
Not coming back around
Somehow-holding on
Somehow-time has got twisted
Somehow-time has gone wrong
Sitting-out
Sitting out-on the porch
Sitting out time
Sit & watch the world
Estranged from life
Regular-lifers passing on by
Strange-strangelhold
Strange-morbid sun
Strange-medicals
Strange-nabiours
Stupid strangers-marr your life
Super-stinky rubbish
Plastic-bags give off stink
Summer-insects be here in a blink
Somehow-will to survive
Somewhere-spirits still alive
Strange-brain strain
Strange-morbid strains
Strange-inner strains
Strange-summer banes
Somehow-dead in my mind
Somehow strange bones
Somehow-strange tricks
Heat-sick
Heart-sick
Hard-head
Harrowing-life
Hard-head
Spirit-sick
See & hear the dead
See & feel the dead
Hungry-all over
Hollowed-out from hungers
Held back-by the heat
Hollowed-out inside
Hallowed-out from prayers
Hollowed-out from stingy ghosts
Hollowed-out from constant fears
Echoes-of the past
Leaves you-in tears
Yellow lands
Yellow light
Yellow life
Life turned-yellow
Life turned-deep brown
Summer lands
Think of deserts
Far away
Dun burning on the sands
Think of Incas
Think of Aztecs
Strange lands of crazy
Strange lands of death
Strange lands
Strange land of ghosts
Sweating heat
Jungle-sinister
Entwined-with green vines
Grinning-ghosts
Grinning-skulls
Gold tooth-glinting in a mouth
Think of heat in the jungle
Thick snakes
Entwined around tree trunks
Crazy spirits-feeding from the heat.......

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Rainy day in Summer
Rainy day is a better-offer
Rainy day-brakes up weeks of yellow
Rainy day-changes all stages
Well of water-from the sky
Well of water-held in clouds
No more need-to hold it down
No more need to hold it in
Rain down-on me
Cooling-cleansing
A welcome brake
So glad-its still there
So glad-for nature
So glad-for the land
Dryness been getting out of hand
Weather's all turned-over
Different state of mind
Bandana-white with skulls
Colour of the moody skys
White-light-blinders
Turns over-to cold white skys
Cold white-is just so blind
Chocolate brown & yellow receding
When we'd been trying to pull on
The summer-colours
Bring the browns & yellows
Right on through
Rubbish-been taken away
No longer-reeks of stink
No more food for the flies
Flies have no more rot-for a time
All flown away
Empty green bottles-taken away in the lorry
Cool winds sneaking through the window
Can't get enough-cool air
Cool & clear
Can't breath enough-trying to suck it all in
Can't wait for the next cold breath-to sneak on through
Cold rain-comforting at night
Splats & drips-outside the window
Rainy veil-hides your sorries
Rainy veil-hides your sorrows
Week of coolness
Week of wellness
Sunny days were the testing
Turns tones like autumn dawns
Turns day like winter storms
Cold white sky's
Will get torn-dirty white
Each dawn opens-cool & quiet
Quiet & murky
Autumn tones again-in the dawn
Pull another blanket-up the bed
Look for a hoodie-left in the hall
Arms get cold
Day goes along
Rain is so lovely & so bold
Hear the rain out the window
Welcome-wet
Welcome-veil of waters
Welcome depts-to nature
Like a winter sky of storm
Drab & cool
Release
Releif
Relax
Blessed waters
Been so dry
News of drought on the radio
Blessed waters
Been so dry
Drought
Douphting
Where is our normal rains?!?
Always rains
Everyone's conversation
We are the nation
Lost-in the rains
Cold grimy & gray
Fearful
Fruitless
Fish have died
Fear for the farmers
Grass needs the rains
City needs a clean
Paving slabs-covered in sticky mess
Brain-needs a cool
Nature-needs a deluge
Grounding-kind of weather
Slows-the crazy summer
Clears out the airwaves
Closes-out the stress
Air is too dry
Air is too stale
Blow out-the crap
Cooling-airs
Creeping in-from the open window
Cool breeze-at night
Hear cars-sluishing along the road
Now there's been rain at night
Slow drivers-creep through the night
Streets are too tense
Roads turn darker
Pavement slabs turn wet
Get out your hoodie-in gray
Arms gone cold-but don't care
Just happy-for the rain
Reach out your arms
Reach out-for the raindrops
Fear not-mostly nature has the plot
Blessed time-again
Pagan-on the porch
Flip-flops on the ground
Skirt down to my knees
Head-looking out at the pavement
Head-looking out at the porch
Head-looking up at the sky's
Odd walkers-going by
Time alone-at dawn
Four in the morning
Sun has risen-day didn't start yet
Thinking of a hot steel-pan later
Meatballs bubblinging-in tomatoe sause 🍅
Instant rice-with chilli sause
Tall bottle sloshes in hot spice
Peas & meatballs
Parent to fear-is hunger
Parent to hunger-is fear
Fear of losing-your lunch
Puke it up high-or lose it below
It's all from too much fear
Taking-up too much space
Too much outside intrusions
Fear-mongers
Taking up your space
Fear mongers
Getting too close-to your face
Steel pan-full again
Parmesan-cheese from a shaker pot
Not much calories-all that you've got
Four twenty five
Day didn't start-right yet
City-is still asleep
Sun-has just risen
Night has just been unplugged
Night has just been withdrawn
Murky-lonley hours just have gone
Cold-drawn
Cold-white skys
But-its still kinda dim
Dim-dawn light
Cold-like a fright
Silent streets
Sleeking with rain
Splatters of rain-brake up the silence
Raindrops-patter on the brain
Rain from the roof-spatters from above
Draws the eye-outside
Dawn roads
Quiet & cool
Few taxis-sleeking by
Slick along the road
As the rain patters-by
Keeping their secrets
Where they've been
Secret passengers
Secret hours
Awake at hidden hours
Private-lifestyle
Private-hours
Raindrops-on your skin
Goosebumps-on your arms
Still in vest-sat out on the porch
Fresh air-from the dawn
Stops the long night
Brings patience to an end
Slows down-time
Tension-bubble of the night
Long night alone-suddenly ends
Tired cold & hungry
Cold dawn-embrace my body
Cold start at dawn
Cold sky at dawn
Cold white sky
Gone dirty-whites
Dotted with gray-smudges
Small gray clouds-dotted over the white
Dirty gray-splodges
Spotted like gray cotton-over the cold white eXpanse
Rains hanging over
Cold drops splatter-onto your pale arms
Rain coming down-into my hair
Near to the gutter-praying for my enemys
Turn my back on-bad works
Prayers for god-to endure me
Face back towards-the house
Patchouli incense burns
Burns-to bless
Lighted tips-ignoring the rains
Porch slabs-gone dark gray
Rain on the reclying boxes
Hammers-fown
Summer stifle-lost it's crown
Cooling waters
Yellow headlamps-lighting up the gloom
Slow cars-crawling in the dawn
Headlights-yellow through the rain
Hidden crow-pair
Racous-calls
Somewhere-out of sight
Silent witness-keeps your life in sight
Slow crawl start
Seagulls screeching-invisible up on high
Black gloom of night-kitchen
Private coocoon-of night kitchen
Steaming herbs & drinking coffee
Classical radio-plonks along
Tend to your herbie-burner
Full-moon prayers
Pray for strength
Push back-the enemy's
Pray to moon-god for strength
Last turn-around
One more try-till it's over
Concentrate-through hunger
Coffee-with milk & cream
Getting tired-of trying
Dawn is creeping around
Sky's going blueish
Outside the curtains
Suddenly cold dawn is here
Waning moon-starts again
Calender days-start again
Note the signs-carry on with your bane
Mark-your days
Week-flies by
Proper business
Proper weather
Proper rain
Proper wetness
No more drizzle
Cold clean air
Started at dawn
Raining all day
Hear it slapping outside the window
Wake-up to the rain
Road gurners darker
Outside the window
Cars crawl slower
Drench the streets
No more droupht
No more douphts
No more half-assed rain
No more 5 minute drizzle
No more promise of rain
That ends-with a sizzle
Proper cold rain-proper cold airs
Back to normal
Back to business
Back to rainy-days again
Back to how we live here again
Back to the days
Drizzling sizzling past
Wet & cool
Cold & Gray's
Not a proper-summer
Just loads of rainy-days......💀🤍🔏

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Cold day in summer
Cooler day in slumland
Cools down the pressure
Calms down the rot
Cooler-thinking through
It's a slower-death
It's a slower-world
It's a better-world
Its a stronger-breath
Sucking in the welcome cold
Cold day in summer
Yet to get old
Slum dwellings-always short on air
Slum flats-always short on grace
Never so fresh
As the middle-classes
With their crystal glasses
Keeping my plastic cups
Weather is so bold
Taking-stock
Sitting on the porch
Cold-morning start
Different world-from last week
Different-day in summer
Different kind-of clock
Different kind of energy
Summer-sickness
Stopped-for a while
Summer crazy-stopped for a day
Summer-maze stopped for a day
Breath in-cold airs
Cold-morning start
Watching life-clock
Full white skys-overhead
Horrible seagulls-whirl overhead
Horrible hunters-overhead sky's
Scavengers-from hell
Stealing-on the porches
Horrible beaks-in the bin bags
Turn your tidy porch-all to messed up hell
Bits of trash-all over
Sit out with other people's rubbish
Tissues & bits of trash everywhere
Horrible beady-beaks
Horrible-hunters eyes on you
No birdlife-friends of mine
White-feinds from the sky's
Cold porch-morning
Fresh air-brake
Black crow-pair
Racous-show off crys
Proper company
Black wings in the sky
Cooler day in hell
Cold day in summer
Cool down your brain
Sudden-change over
Sudden-overload is gone
Suddenly-muffling heat is off
Muzzle of summer-fallen off
Maze of summer-suddenly stops
Madness of suffering-suddenly drops
Just for a day
Everything stops
Everything cools
Reminders of autumn days
Reminders of winter
Future strife-yet to come
Watch your wardrobe
Scarves & shirts come out again
Freeze time-clear out your mind
Sudden stifles-clearing out the well
Well of heat-drags you down
Scared of the nights-bound to the gutters
Scared of spirits-with evil eyes
Scared of flying spirits-with hateful hearts
Scared of lying tongues-will split you apart
Holy mother of Gods
Show us light in the dark
Spirit lamplight of Holy-Death
Most surely lead us through hell
Icey-white light cut through the crap
Filthy gloom of corruptions
Bad airs-adverse conditions
Hell is the underworld-in slumbound houses
Hell & demons are fighting-all life
Hells & demons crave chaos & death
Hell & all Demons have the hateful hearts
No love in the slumlands-which envys can't brake
No life in the ghetto-that fate can't brake💀
Holy Father-i pray for my breath
Let me breath-each breath
Free of all fears-true clean air
Death is fighting-off death
King of kings-crown of everlasting spirit
Keep us white-white as chalk 🤍
Pure as the snows-white as a bone
Fear of the future-worn like a crown
Morbid summer-takes the crown
Fear of death-owns the crown
Already living with fears-everyday
Death in povertys-death in dangers
Death in older home-see death in everything
What would it take-to take me out?!?
Not much I know-sitting duck I know!!
Co-morbiditys in every aspect
Death of disabled-living alone
Turned into deathlike mummy's
Dying-estranged from family
End up as a curio-in the paper
Someone who fought-till they couldn't
Carry on with the shit facade
The shit parade of human hate-crimes
Live feeling-grimey till you've had enough
Ended up-as a shit statistic
Could be me-wouldnt take much
Grim-reaper in waiting
Why is he waiting?!?
What does he want to make it done?!?
God won't let go-till I've suffered enough
Punishment-with gutter relatives
Sad old shit from too long ago
Never really cared back then & don't care now
Just want to be free
Shit shovelers-at the front
Human-crawlers at the back
Shit life of crawling
Shit life of holding-on
Pressure gets too much🔥
God let me go
God let it-be done
Social neglect
Poverty & death
It's a death-pile
It's a death-mile
It's a dearh-pill
Of social-statistics
Statistics-of death
No easy-turn around💀
Death-factors
Don't look good-on the list
Don't look good-on the mirror
Don't need-all this shit
Why is he waiting?!?
How could I fight him?!?
Death is the watcher
Death-skull is a keeper
Hidden rope around my neck
Born into poverty & violence
It's a bullet times 10
Nothing much-changes
Some stuff-got better
Don't care-anymore
Born into silence & squalor
Born unwanted
Horrible shadow-now I'm older
Bothers me-less
It's such-a statistic
God is my true father
Not some loser-monster
Born-unwanted
Massive stress-on the spirit body
It's downhill-from there
Don't take much-to be a goner
Kids who werent-wanted
Always come out-funny
Stunted-from the start
It's a creeping-death till then
Born into a suiside-silence
Life of suppressed rage
Every hour is stilen-cause I'm still here
Every day-is stolen
Cause I took it-back
Wanted myself-for longer
Till its-gone down
It's counting till ten
Wish that death-was fast as an aXe
Pretty sure-it won't be that fast
Poverty is a risk factor
Suicide co-mobiditys
Sad life-shit risk factors
Horrible facts of life-know too much
So much violence-from before my birth
How am I still alive?!?
How come I still blink?!?
Everybreath I breath-i fear him around
Everybreath I take-i fear death taking me away
Everyday-morbid illness
Everyhour-deadly spirits around the corner
Every breath deathly spirits-around the corner
Morbid fears of life-not able to handle it
Great fears of life
To morbid-subdigations I surcumb
Great fears of life-i cannot understand
How I struggle for so long
But yet this life-can just be gone
Everyday-this morbid illness
Heat just evaporates-away
Cooling down fears-of death
Cooling wind-welcome as well
Cooling wind-can come in to quell
Cooling wind-helps your brain
Escape the pressure-cooker
Escape the heat-smash
It's been a-stunner
It's been-a downer
Escape the slum summer
Escape-summer depression
Heat is a-pusher
Last week's mistakes-go in the trash
Full of empty packets-from hasty snacks
Outside-metal street bin handy
Everyone's bits of small-life trash
Up since before dawn
Up during night
Picking away-at life
Pushing through-home jobs
Paceing through-the night
Till the low dawn-comes in
Cold bare & empty-white
Cold dawn-on the houses porch
Cool-cold lovely blast
Cool white skys-cloudless white
Cold gray stone-looking out
Life still not started
Dawn's just shown-on up
Empty streets
No cars even-yet
Just bloody-birds
Making rawk-with the silence
Cold silence of bitter-dawn
Seagulls whirling in the sky's
Been wrecking on the trash
Soon be returning-to their nests
Nabiours rubbish-all about
Green boxes-full of trash
Left in the wrong place
Empty bottles-someones beer party
Empty street-life
Row of houses-still asleep
Prayers on the porch
Incense-coconut smell slowly leaks
Prayers-up to heaven
Smoke-curling up in the wind
Flint-lighter fights the wind
To light the charcoal sticks
Herbie blessings-on the hob
Steam rising-up in a plume
Steady prayers-still in the gloom
Creamy coffee-in the plastic mug
Bandanas soaking in the bathroom-sink
Sure gods-eye is starting to blink
Potatoes in the steel-pan
Waiting for the butter
Tuna cans-piled on the side
Chilli sause bottle-going near empty
Sucks when-its all been had
Stupid tap-still leaking plenty
Bits of this & that
Steady chores-been down with that
Steady-progress
Going on slower-down with that
Cool down your blood
Cool down your head
Cool down your skin
Cool down your housework
Steady-out your strifes
Whited sky's all above
Yellow-light is gone somewhere
Yellow of sun
Chocolate brown of summers
Gone back-over to Gray's
Yellow bandana
Been bananas
Gone back over to grim-gray
Feels like rain-might come in
Soak everyone-out in shorts
Pace yourself-well
Feel yourself-better
Know yourself-cooler
Feel like-your calmer
Get more done
Got more-down
Got the clothing on the line
Sit on the porch
Looking out at the streets
Coconut incense blowing in the wind
Moon is a-growing
Couple more days & it's full
Scents-for the good gods
Life's slowing down
Heat-pressures falling away
Heats been all drained-out
Hidden-away
Death has gone from rotting-back to cold
Spirit candle-was yellow
Gone back-towards white
Cold day in summer
Moody sky threatens rain
Summers been pushed-away
Cool wind blows
To refresh the soul
Remind us of autumn days before
Sky goes cool white
Cool wind blows onto my skin
Sky goes gray with grubby clouds
To threaten rain
Be gone-as soon as it comes
Rain just drains-away
No real downpoors
To flood the streets
Pray for more rain
Wash out the sticky-streets
Summer tourists-tread the beat
All the lights been drained-back out
Cold day in summer
Stop-the rush
Stop-the heat
Slow down-the manic hum
Count your blessings-down from 10
Pray for some-summer rains
To help the streets
Paving-slabs turning darker......💀🤍